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Dear Diary, I Bare my Heart to You

Dear Diary.....what goes beyond this salutation is often a mystery to the writer until the ink starts to flow upon the pages. Keeping a diary is an extremely personal introspection. When you start writing about such intimate experiences there is a natural cause and effect that can't be avoided. For me, today is one of those occasions where the unfolding thoughts take me to an undetermined place.

Today is my Mother Suzanne Colpetzer's birthday and I miss her as much today as the day that she left this earth in November 2002. Has it really been over eight years since you traveled to the spirit world and left your family on earth missing your love and your presence? I wish I could turn back the clock today even for an hour so I could spend that entire hour immersed in time spent with you Mom. We could talk, laugh, share and love like we used to do. Now I know that you are out there some where watching over me and all your family. That is the kind of woman you always were, kind, loving, compassionate, caring and concerned about your family. Why should a separation from the physical world change your identity when that is who you are in the spirit.

Here's a hug Mom, a big hug and a kiss or two or twenty. I know you can feel me as much as I can feel you. I love you Mom. I'm shouting it to the pages of "Dear Diary" and to the world because I'm going to share my feelings about you to the world on facebook. You would've liked facebook Mom.

I know how excited you were to learn how to use a computer in your last few years and then you got a Dell computer. You even sent me an email to tell how exciting that was to you. Remember how we used to play email chase and hide and seek online? It was so much fun. You and I created all these identities in different emails using clues in other emails about where we might be lurking next. The riddles were the best part. It was like playing Sherlock Holmes together and I know those stories and movies were some of our favorites to watch together. Such good memories Mom that I'm smiling from my eyes to my spirit that is reaching into those heavens to touch your immortal soul, for an instant in time and for all eternity.

I love you Mom. I'll see you in the blink of an eye. God bless and keep us both till that moment. God speed.

Your daughter,
Sherry

Secrets shared and Secrets hidden

Have you ever been faced with the decision about what to write in your diary and what to keep locked inside your heart? I mean, a diary is like a secret place that people use to write their inner most thoughts, feelings, poems, love stories, pain, and life events. Just exactly where does secret end and public begin regarding a woman's diary? That is the question I asked myself. Tradition shows that diaries are read by no one but kept under lock and key usually hidden away from spying eyes. Modern tradition shows a trend toward writing journals which are more public forums for exploring life and sharing life. Well, modern diaries have become more public than any journal dared to be. Think about the internet and its vast uses. Social sites like myspace and facebook and vox provide forums where journals and diaries are kept. These are public places even with the best security in sharing choices. Then there is the latest custom of blogging, like this blog. I found a public forum to write my secret diary to share with the world. If I didn't want to share it then I should probably write it in one of the locked little books and keep it hidden away like our grandmothers did in their time. So the only question left to answer is "what do I write in a public diary?"